boy of confusion

(6/5)

hi, there’s now another someone else
(i think i can’t make up my mind)

but i think you can’t either!!

this was completely out of the blue
blossoming from
“you looked very beautiful today btw”
to
“you should text me”
to
“i’m not gonna lie i do like you”

wait. dont you have a girlfriend??

he said no.

oh.

anyway, i’ve seen him at A+ lately,
he is cute, but i never actually bothered with liking him
cause, it seemed pointless

but yesterday you became very confusing.
you barely texted me at all, but when you did
it was to tell me that you couldn’t do anything
on saturday
today you asked me to hang out tonight
and now you say you’re really pissed about some stuff
and don’t know if you’ll be up to it.
come onnnn…

and now i just asked you why it says on facebook that you still
have a girlfriend. that’s like dating a married man kinda??
lol not gonna go there.

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(6/8)

so. that night was great.
i really thought it was going somewhere.
i think you did too.

on saturday you even changed your facebook.

but on sunday morning you changed it back.
and i finally asked you why

“cause me and my girlfriend got back together.
i was getting ready to tell you.
sorry Cathy”

“i’m sorry, i didn’t think we would
but then we talked last night and well
now we’re together. i’m really sorry Cathy”

“i’m so sorry Cathy. i really do like you.
don’t think i didn’t cause i did and still do.
i never wanted to hurt you”

“i’m so so so so so sorry Cathy”

me: “good thing you weren’t on the rebound or anything”

“were you being sarcastic? cause that’s not cool.
i’m not trying to be an ass about this.
i said i was sorry, i never ever meant to hurt you”

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gosh!!! there is NOBODY decent left!

except then someone who did
the exact same thing to me about 7 months ago
texts me…

“cathy?”

“yeah”

“i’m sorry for playing you on all those times”

a week ago, i would have been jumping for joy
but now i just feel… blank.

and just a few minutes ago someone who moderately
ripped out my heart last night texts me again.

“you still mad at me?”

“well once more i’m so sorry i hurt you.
i really do feel horrible i did this to you.
you didn’t deserve it”

“why are you sorry?
you did nothing wrong but be amazing!
i’m sorry i did this to you”

WELL! you seem awful sorry!
(its not too late to undo the damage)

why do things that we are going to be
SO sorry for??

ugh. i just thought you were different
you really have no clue how many times this
situation, exactly or a variation,
has happened to me

“but hey you never know
what will happen in the future”

yes i do. more people will screw me over.
oh you’re talking about what could happen
in the future with you?

well first of all, that sounds oh so optimistic
that you and your old girlfriend that you dumped me for,
will have a long and happy future together.
so why did you even go back if that’s your outlook?

second, i seem to have a good idea of what would happen
you’d lie to me again!
“why wouldn’t we work out?”
“don’t you have a girlfriend?”
“no…”
———–
“are you sure you’re not on the rebound or anything?”
“of course not, i don’t do that to girls!”
———–
“you have a girlfriend!”
“no i don’t we went over this. i don’t have one, not yet :)”
———–
lies!! what else can i expect from you?

well i bet A+ will be oodles of fun tomorrow.

~ by cathy on June 8, 2009.